Of course, that's not true. I'm not VERY old -- although I am very tired. It just all depends upon where I'm looking.
I was talking with a friend the other day and we were talking about how our lives aren't going the way we thought they would be. Not that either one of has a "bad" life because we certainly don't. In fact, we're both really blessed. But, at the same time, we had certain expectations and ideas of where we'd be in this stage of life ... and yeah, we're not experiencing those expectations. And whenever there are unmet expectations, discouragement and feelings of being overwhelmed follow, especially when I'm focusing on myself.
My question is this: Where did those expectations come from? And why do I expect God to meet those expectations and dreams that I'VE planned?
Over and over and over in my life, God has shown me that His plans are different than mine. We've established that. Yet, Diana still clings to her dreams, her fantasies, her ideas of a perfect world, and then gets frustrated when it doesn't turn out according to plan. I've had dreams and goals for my children, for my husband and I, for our extended family, for our friends ... and I can't make everyone do what I want! I can't turn back the hands of time. I can't fix everything for everyone. And I certainly can't turn this life in to a scripted movie where everything goes according to my plan.
Shattered dreams? Maybe. But maybe they were dreams that needed to be shattered so God could take His rightful place.
I'm still learning. He's still teaching. It's all a part of Finding Me in Him ...